:my little voices:

2005-06-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

it feels great to be 16 :D

2005-05-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

i feel my heart crying.

but it's gonna be over soon:)

2005-05-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

hi.

pretty busy recently.
cant be bothered to update
yess.
many many unexpected things happened.

think i'm gonna flung chi o's
left with one week to mug only.
sigh confirm cannot get A2
and i must retake.
toopid.

sweet:]
i miss you

2005-05-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

REVENGE IS SWEET

vexed.

guys i know i hurt you before,and okay
come and get back at me.

i feel that either of you had betrayed me.

why dont you just tell me straight at my face.

fuck this dlrow.

how would you feel
if you were upset,and on the verge of crying
and they just stood they smirking away?

i almost fainted.
god-damnthis.

i like him god-damn much
but i think he's the one.

my heart broke.

2005-05-03T20:13:00.000+08:00

aights.

i admit i am clumsy
fell down while walking up the stairs today.
so embarassing i tell you!
but thankfully,it was during reading period.
think only,weiyao,dejian,kenneth and jason saw that
ugly sight.
still,with that badmouth dj around,my clum-siness is
being spread la:l
damn bitch.

well,the fall was pretty bad,my thigh hit the kerb and is bruised now,
whats worse;i have difficulty walking .
shucks.internal bleeding shit.

passed!my chinese prelims paper2!woooooo yeah.!
sadly,english paper today was a killer.
and did i mention nine days rocks!?oh yeah,it does:D

2005-05-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Nine days-goodfriend

I used to think that you were someone else
Then I'd loose my mind each day
I used to think that I could help myself
But its true what they say
There is no reason without a way
This is

Good Bye to you and
Me what a good friend you've been to me and
I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is you

I used to wish that I was someone else
then I'd dream away the day
those dreams have made me into someone new
and its true what they say
there is no better time than today
if this is

Good Bye to you and Me
what a good friend you've been to me
and I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is you

I am here
I need to say
that I will miss youeveryday
and its true what they say
there is no better time than today
if this is

Good Bye to you and Me
what a good friend you've been to me
if this isGood Bye to you and Me
well what good friends we will always be
and I owe it all to youevery good thing that I do is you x 2
its you

Every good thing that I do is you
its you

every good thing that I do
well I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is

to you..goodbye

2005-05-02T18:55:00.000+08:00

and the world keeps spinning around

my head feels like i'm carrying a 10kg rock.
:l
i'm doomed,
6 tests coming up
and 've studied only one.
rahh

i hate evenings.

2005-04-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

hi!

i dreamt of _ _ _ _ _ _ last night.
and the dream was soooooo nice please:D
i wish i hadn't wake up and the dream will
continue on forever...

wel,towned today,bump-ed
into many many nasian
and i soo-looklike crap
bang shot please.

kana cheated by minou!
they closed the whole damn shop in heeren.
okay and they told me they'll be moving to fareast;
and so i went there,and the fucking shop was nowhere
to be seen.
went to the information counter and the security guard
told me that there is no such shop.
#$%#$%$#%$.

2005-04-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

i feel as though i'm missing someone.

but i have no idea who is it
this is terrible..
and i hate the feeling:(

2005-04-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

hurrrs
did i mention that i look childish in my new haircut?
in fact,i look like a tomb-boy:l
was complaining to mama the whole night and
i just wasn't able to shutup
sorry pat.
wel,but i'm beginning to like my new look la:)
i'm vain;haveta look at the mirror every
10 to 15 mins.pardon me.

did cme project after school;
sorry guys, i wasn't of a great help.
promise i'll play my part if there is
a next time aiights?

bused home with bq,
sadly,jl don't want to accompany me:(
been a long time since 've last catch up
with her.

chinese prelims next week!!
must mug everyday and
no moree retail-therapy:(
can someone teach me to
be more self-disciplined?
i need help..

2005-04-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

i love today's weather
the sky was so clear
and i love the sun;
soaking up the sun
i'm tanner now,but a bit burnt
at my chest part.hurrs

gonna cut short hair tomorrow
i'm sooooooo scared it'll turn out bad
not that i never cut short hair before
but because i ever had this really screwed up
haircut 2 years back
and ever since then;no more short hair.

wel,had enough of long hair
whatever la
i'm going t give me a try again
bless me!
:D

2005-04-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

i'll stop talking t pretty boy
cause i think it's useless
my frens ask my to pluck up the courage to talk to him
and i obviously did
but nothing much to talk about also.
plus i dont even know him well,
wel,forget it.
it's seriously very irritating to be the one
strating all the topics.

someday.

2005-04-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

holler
i'm so bored.
anyhoos, spent my saturday with bird n ethel
the three of us dressed so differently
hurrs, like each has it's own theme

i want that pair of minou.
next saturday:)
sadly,i cannot find ze green mango tee anymore:(

i miss you:l

2005-04-03T13:56:00.000+08:00

red rain's concert was alrte
dont like the part when they start talking about the god though
wel,no offence
i'm just not ready to hear any of it

jumped too much yesterday
calf aching so badly now.
anyhoos,bumped into vane before that
and vane-i think you look awesome yesterday:)

i'm excited about my match against jurong this tues
screamssssssssss!

2005-03-31T19:07:00.000+08:00

hello everybody, i'm backk!
been so busy with schoolwrk;competition and training
that i dont even have the time t blog.

anyways nas vb team got into national top 4!!!
ever since lke what bernie said,yushan's batch
which is like 3 years ago..
okay this is my last year, and i'm proud that we made it this far..
but i'm upset that i fair badly in today's match against hilda
argh ever! we're in top 4!! lalalalala-skips about..

yesterday it was announced that the 3 mnths jc thingy is being retained!:)
i wanna go sajc :( but 11 points..
kelv says at the rate i'm studying
i can make it:)
hopefully.

2005-03-20T13:14:00.000+08:00

-pouts :(
the holis is going t be over soon

spend my entire week( mon/weds/sat)
going for training.
i seriously have no life

but i bought two mre handbags this week :)
retail-therapy jst solve my prob

think i'm beginning t act lke rebecca bloomwood
nono..

arghh, i dread doing chinese hmewrk!

2005-03-18T15:08:00.000+08:00

special thanks t kelvin ong:)
for my retarded layout.
i know you guys must be thinkin how childish this is
BUT! i like it alrte

anyhoos, its pretty weird that i'm home at this hour.
training was cancelled and i was supposed t go catch a flick
with darling and her cousins
but was too tired and i have yet t complete my holi hmewrk

talk talk fun fun
yesterday i talk a whle lot to edelia
although we may be from the same pri school ,we never knew each another
until 2 years back
and as we met up
we told each other out lil secrets.tsk.
HITCH is fucking funny(4/5 popcorns)

wel, i'm off t finish up my hmewrk
toodles!

2005-03-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

hoho
believe it or not; i had fish congee:l
28 fuckin tablespoon of oil frm that two chicken
yes.yesterday
fattty bom bom alrdy:(

i love mugging and i love reading:)
i know this sounds insane
but i enjoy it alrte.

i feel like a freeeeee-bird now
no mre tests and whatsoever
holidaysss' approaching
:D

i'm saying gooooooodbyeee t blogger soon!

2005-02-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

i'm on the verge of breaking down;

i hope the countless tests will stop haunting me.
like i said in my previous post, i'm seriously dying down.
i coudln't do chem though i paid attention ever since the first lesson
:(
this makes no sense.

2005-02-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

its all over-

i realised bernie having the same feeling as me.
;guess we jst want it so badly

karin says i'm hallucinating
jst because i felt the table moving,
when it is not
am i crazy
wake me up!

shazana's bf is so sweett
he comes and pick her up after classes
and how i thought about my past.
gees. thankfully
i do not adore him anymore.

but i adore someone else
:(

2005-02-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

i'm weakling and so emo :(
lost the match yesterday against st.hilda's
i wailed like a baby...
thankyou those who were there for me
thankyou for the hugs
thankyou for the encouragement
thankyou all
all of a sudden, i missed all those who were on court with me:(
the girls i hardly think of.. now i missed them so much
i have no idea why..mabyee i jst want it so much fr the team
i'm still upset over the loss.

till now,i still feel like crying. i know its only east zone,
but no mre anymoreee.no mre chances am i going t go on caught again
left national which i feel its impossible t play

i miss how no.4 frm st hilda's look
hope i can see him again.
although karin thinks its ugly
and her no.6 is cuter
fine.

the forest pretty near my house is on fire.
mum jst break the glass door
dad's money gt stolen
i lost my match
such luck :(

2005-02-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

countdown;3 and a half hour t being sixteen :)

a/x tee plus a specially baked orea cheesecake -smiles widely

darl: i <3 it so much.i swear i was smiling to myself full force when i recieved that, so shocking please and thanks a zillion:D

urgh,i hate splitting headache
must be because of dnt,make me wanna bang my head against the wall:l

i'm always running out of breath when i swim.
all thanks to daddy; stop smoking right in front of my face!!
pouts -

2005-01-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

i felt humiliated, hurt and stupid..

towned today, got my levis jeans and flesh imp shirt
dont feel contented at all.
bahh, so busy these few days
monday's my first match
feeling confident:)

i love strips

2005-01-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

inside of me, i'm feeling very terrible

maybee is not good to admire someone
you dont even know
never ever talk t him.
only a 'hi'.
gees, how dumb...
urgh shall perish the thought
pointless:(

i managed t see him today....

anyhoos,homework day out
wenta finished up all our homewrk at coffee bean today
had a whle lot of fun
disturbing and teasing each other:)

watch troy at her house after that
but din finished the whle show
cos of some particular reason

2005-01-20T16:18:00.000+08:00

wohoooooo!
its my rest day tmr
no training.
but gonna study with karin:)

lunched with jl,xm,bernie,birdie and yili
fun fun.
did lots of catching up with tammie
that poor girl; her knees were sore after a terrible fall

i was looking out for him after school
and was wondering if he had left.
... and suprisingly,
he was playing soccer.
teehee;p

2005-01-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with me
i get so happy when i see him
though i barely even know him
is it jst infatuation?
plus he doesnt even know
wtf am i thinking man
can someone jst shoot me.
i will greatly appreciate that
thankyou verymuch :l

2005-01-18T18:11:00.000+08:00

i can jst drop dead on the floor
tons of d and t wrk t do
plus,i haveta see mr wong's fucked face

passed my chinese-B4, trigger happy
modern jazz dance was uber fun,
everyone was enjoying themselves,
and no idea why, i joined the gents.
hurs

my dunk and jeans no size.
dunk i can forget about it.
but nt my jeans
haveta wait fr another 3 weeks:(

received super late x'mas card frm birdie
pretty pls!

i so want that mango green skirt.!

2005-01-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

shagged shagged shagged.

CIP+training;torturing

actually doing the cip thingy was fun,
teamed with jason at the first half
then dj.went arnd few blks askin fr old newspaper/unwanted clothes.
i feel good that i'm doing my job and helping the pple at breakthrough :)

how nice, nike green tick dunk,
levis jeans fr b'dae frm mumsy :))

saw the red/white adidas sweater at miz 29 today
pretty pls!

sec 3's; have fun at camp
miss you guys lots

2005-01-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

new year; new layout :]

my pass two days was terrible
was diagnosed with throat infection
which sadly lead to high fever and running nose

i was on bed for two days.
could hardly walk.
and my vision was blurred.
i thought i was going t die.
hurrs, speakin of that my tutor and jx were down with fever too.
such luck can.

thankfully,my fever is gone now :)
but,am still coughing and having a running nose.

thanks darl and bird for paying me a visit yesterday
kelv; fr coming home early to keep me company
mumsy; who sponged me the whole night
den; who got my books
hohoho.spread the love

fcukwitt,i miss two days of lessons,
and so much catching up t do now please!
somebody helppppp...

2005-01-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

screams! school reopens tmrw,and i haven touch poa yet.
gees,i left all my notes in school and its highly impossible i'm able
to complete it.
i'll jst pray hard that my new poa teacher wouldnt come chasing for it
so soon:l

tuition is cancelled,cos shazana is still nt back yet from vacation.

anws,my new year's eve was great
celcebrated with kelv,princessy tham, perlynne
and unwelcome anad.
the 5 of us caught phantom of the opera at 9.30
thanks goodness,it ended at 11.55
still left with 5 mins t count down.
after which, we rushed dwn to see if we cld still
catch a glimpse of the rock band;performing at hyatt.
hurrr,but too bad,we aint invited and so.....

yhucks,i loathe the fcukers who tried spraying crazy ribbons at us.
fcukwitt.

cabbed dwn t newtons;grab our supper then cabbed home again.
the whole day, so much money was spent on cab fares ; so broke now.

2004-12-29T18:49:00.000+08:00

i found out that my ex is attached.
GRATS.

fancy telling me that i'm his best friend and din even tell me
tsk. such friend.
to hell with you man!

2004-12-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

leave me alone pple ; dont bother

urgh.

2004-12-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed off by the people arnd me.

:(

2004-12-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

x'mas will be over in 3 hrs tme :(

a day for celebration;receiving and sending gifts

anws. the hangout today wasnt that great
present: me,sherry,karin,jas neo,elise
all of us were feeling moody
since none of us plan to do anything;
we practically walked arnd;sat dwn;chit chat
no shows to catch.
caught the ones to be watched alrdy.

tsk. unlucky.i bummed into my ex in cine
that guy was with another girl
i'm glad i din feel a thing
cause she aint pretty;cheenah;typical
oh whatever
i'm nt trying to say that i'm pretty or what ;
jst dont feel inferior at all :)
one must have confidence:))

lunched at marche
and the minimum you haveta spend there?
15 buckaroos.
i bet the staffs will get their bonus this year end.
cheaters :P
and the food aint that great anymore..

managed to get another new handbag frm xcessorise :)
i love white baggies .

oh yeah. bummed into jin xian too.
that guy's cool.

2004-12-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

shagged.
walked lke hell this afternoon.
mango sale at wisma was great
managed t get ze stuffs i wanted
jst realised that cropped jeans are
really nice and comfortable

had mini party at darl's crib.
the part whre we sat under the mistletoe(spell?)
getting kissed was fuckin funny.

guess x'mas this year is ze best?
spent with the pple i love
and tmr we'll be outing with the clique(minus del and tasha)
ones in camp and another still in aussie
oh wels.
jst hpe it turns out great.

hohoho :) merry x'mas

2004-12-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

as usual.i'm feeling so full nw.
points finer at myself-to eat so fast :(
highly umcomfortable.

shopping ; towning was great today.
gt ze adidas bowling bag.i always wanted.
skips arnd-i'm sooo happy that i found it!
and the polkadot bottle i have been looking high and low for
awesome:))

lunched at some restaurant in taka
great great.i ordered mushroom baked rice
yums.
after that rushed off to lido.
caught ocean's 12.
two thumbs up-4/5 popcorns.
i wanna catch it again.
and i have no idea why pple can fall asleep
watching such a good show.
the 8.50 was worth paying.

headed fr millenia walk after that.
cos darl wanted to get x'mas pressie.
walked a whle lot.and my toes are aching.
:(

wel.i'm gonna catch some romantic movie with mummy tmr.

2004-12-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

burp!! i'm so full.
mamee's on half day leave today; and bought me good dinner:)
awesome.alison gave me 50 buckoroos for x'mas.

gonna head fr town tmr.and catch ocean's twelve.
wel, some pple says its so boring ;they fell asleep
in ze cinema and some said it was superb:l
but since darl's mum is treating.no harm watchin.

lunched with my vball pals.
after that jialing.ks.bernie and i headed fr melville park.
wenta play tennis and some bball.
tennis was a hella fun.though mst of ze tme.
bth jialing and i were picking balls.
hurrs.tiring i mst sayy.
think i'm gonna join kelv the nxt tme rnd.

wohoo. i cant wait fr tmr.big tme shopping with darl.
long longg tme....
and and... my x'mas pressies!!!

2004-12-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

this bitch is finally normal and working :)

i havent been blogging all because of the damn bitch who refuses
to get going and eventually break dwn. hurr hurr. i'm crapping.
>points to my computer.lmao

thanks darling for the many things you got for me.lovelove*

wenta her crib yesterday,tanned and swam a bit.
i feel fit.cos i'm basically exercising 4 times a week.
sentosa was great,beach volleyball was a hella fun.

i haven been towning with her for lke a mnth? i swear.
uber long. but towning this sat! wohooo.

did i mention that recently i have a fetish for buying purse?
hurr yea, i'm spendthrift.and buying tons of the same thing.
shoot me pls.

i have no idea whose x'mas prezzie i shld be getting.-ponder- the humans
in my clique are nowhre to be seen.and i haven heard frm them for long?
gees.terrible ah! humans contact me when you guys are back

2004-12-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

hohoho:) i finally get t see my birdie again.
its being a really long tme since i last met up with her.anws,lunched with marmee this afternoon.
only had peanut ice-kachang since my appetite wasnt
that good.

after lunch.we went to some plaza to walk arnd,
hurr.marmee bought me a lovey biege shorts and black-white wallet for me.irks! lovin' it!

marmee had t go back to wrk and i accompanied her back
to her office before meeting up with birdie.

walked a whle lot in twn again.was walking everywhere
trying to get something really nice.and i love this mng purplish top.but its too low-cut:(.

i ended up getting volcolm instead,hur.the graffiti is bloody coral :)

and i'm so into vintage belts now..

I MISS MY DARLING SOOO MUCH!!!

2004-12-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

theres something wrng with the main com.this is the backup com.and it actually wrks? confused-.-

and so i'm gonna feel funny without my other half.
wel,she left fr KL this morning.well will only see her perhaps nxt week?

mama got me ripcurl shoes cause theres no more other nicer ones i can find for schooling next year.

books fr year 16 costs only $50? theres actually not much books to purchase. hohoho.and that means lesser books to bring to school.GOODYlicious!!

i think i'm gonna have a room makeover since kelv is getting one too.whatever it is.i'm gonna pick lime-green for my wall-what do you guys think?

2004-11-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

darling is leavin for KL this sat.
gees* no one to buzz me:(
and i'm so gonna miss her.
one come back and another gone...

why lke that!!

hurr. caugh the polar express.cos we din wanta head fr home.
the show was lame.and the damn nerd was fuckin funny.
his tone.jst makes me fall off the chair.i swear

my dinner sucks. had macaroni.
mum says its fr sick patient :l
i ate lke only 1/4 man.

its so scary that the pple arnd us are dying... and leavin us.......

2004-11-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

DFS was great.
thanks mama-love love*
she bought me new guess watch and handbag.plus URS shoe.

thanks kelv fr getting me the many things frm paris.
new handbag.vintage belt and long sleeve. and a dunlop bowling bag. :)
happy happy girl-jumps about.

i'm leading a great life now.
and i so love it.

2004-11-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

i'm still one friggin beat girl.i swear the typing job is killing me. i jst feel like giving up now.and asked fr a half price salary? can that happen.somebody help me....

anyways.spent half of my day kayaking. its my first time and i mustt admit its much tougher than i had expected.uber tiring,but builds up arm muscles.teamed with ferlyn,aites,my lovey girl,though we were struggling the whle time,trying to keep up with the rest.we gained some experience and i love the way they wore their swimwear. the waterproof suite.its bloody coral!i feel lke getting one of those too.hurr. had lots of really fattening junks today.ice cream and mre ice-cream. thanks to lisa.the ice-crem craver:P. we were all lke screaming and shouting for the ice-cream man.aites. its lame.

had creamy chicken,taste still as good
walk arnd tmall after dinner with elise and ferlyn tagging along.
was supposed to get my mango denim but ended up getting a billabong denim.eeks! i love it :]

yes yes.the moment i step in. the phone rang. and guess who! KELV!! whose gonna touch down at 3.30 pm tmr,cant wait to see bug beary!!!

aint feeling too good.as usual i feel the floating in the sea feeling.. gees.why lke that!! i'm beginning to love water sports.

sat is DFS staff sale and i cant wait too!

2004-11-24T16:42:00.000+08:00

(westlife)you guys cant sing like micheal buble,frank sinatra or any successful jazz singer out there.

gees.and the tune are totally the same. they're basically spoiling the image of jazz.

yhucks.in fact i think.they shld continue and sing their pop sound rather than trying to change their image to catch ppl'e atention. -be what you are-.

____________________________________________________________________________

-hurr.my wrk is going to be done soon.
finally after 4 days of struggle.

kelv's gonna be back on fri :) oh boy. the house has been so quiet without him.

gees... i wont be able to fetch him frm the airport.hmph! all because of damn training.

nevermind,i'll rush home right after training to meet up with him.

perhaps towning after the return,yes! i cant wait...maybee i;ll be able to meet sandra too.

kayaking tomorw.with my vball peeps.wel,its the first time all of us are doing something together.great great.

but karin wont be therre with me.oh wel..

2004-11-23T10:35:00.000+08:00

one friggin beat girl.for the past few days. i've been typing non-stop.i swear i'm not gonna take up this kind of job every again.after i'm done with my 18 sets.get my pay.i'm gonna spend it all.alrte,i cant wait for it.

karin>thanks for forking out your time and helping me out with the typing.i heart you ;]

anyways,kelv called last night.i was uber happy.-jumps ard- and ask us what we wanted from london.wel,i din know what they have there and jst asked to get anything.

and as i was about to doze of at 1am,he called! to tell me that he got my some handbag and belt.and ask me if i wanted more? okay,this is weird... when wld kelv be so concern about what i ever wanted? maybee.he jst miss me too much.hurr hurr.aites.after about a 2 min conversation,we hung up and i tried getting back into my sleep.gees,i swear it was hard. and this second time when i was about to really get into my deep sleep,ZENNY replied my msg.gees,my night was disrupted twice!!

oh wels,i'm staying home today to finish up with bloody typing.mum's helping,karin's helping, and birdie might be helping out too.thanks to all.-bows-.sincerely appreciate all your help

2004-11-21T01:39:00.000+08:00

move on in life.and forget about past relationships.....

i'm sick and tired of reasoning out with people and arguing over the phone.......

lets jst say having no feeeling for any sex its the best. problem-free.

JUST LIKE ME :)

i have no serious feel for anyone or should i say whatever sex earthlings that exist on the planet.

this is great.numb.nice feeel.

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i had a great time shopping with mum in town today.bought my FCUK top and FCUK bag.

shoes next week.am contented :] spend arnd $150 or so and got a limited edition top.

thank god its white. i'm sick of black shirts and i look terrible in them now. maybee white suits be better.

i'm crappy today :l

prayed on the train ; that kelv would be fine and enjoying himself.

was talkin to mummy about clubbing jst now.as we were jst outside chinablack and she acually offered to bring me thre to clubb.can you believe it!mummy tellin me that she'll bring me to clubb.am i dreaming??

wel,i cant wait for it! clubbing at 15? what rubbish??

i rather club when i'm 17/18 whre i can dance to the maxi with my ones.and not with mummy arnd? its so weird and so nt happening..

imagine grooving to the dance floor and your mum staring at you....how terrible.oh wels,i wanna grow up plsssss.....soon van! be patient.yadayadaya

anyways.she also mention that i'll be able to club if kelv's arnd with me.wohho.

the grroovy dancy.he can grroove and i;ve seen his move..clubbing with brother.its so nice :]

though most pple will feel so awkward. we aint.brosissy:us:we love us.

2004-11-20T14:37:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU!! BIG BEARY >.<

phew! he jst gif my mum a call to tell us that he has safely arrived at AMsterdam.wel,but transition next.off to london.i feel so relieved now.

though he sounds sick and tired over the phone.i'm jst glad that he's safe and sound.poor boy.he's having a blocked nose now.tkkair my bro! i love you.

BE BACK SOON!!

2004-11-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

wenta see kelv off jst nw. and i'm so missing him now :(

wel,piggy will see you back in a weeks tme.though tat piggy is my older brother. and that means he's suppose to be able to look after himself and yea independent and stuffs. but still, i'm worried fr him.scared that he wont be able to wake up lke 6 am in de morning.nt enough clothes to keep in warm.getting hungry in the night. let's jst say he's too pampered. but uhuh-i m not. hurr

anyways. i jst realise that i haf this phobia of wearin short skirts now.i hate stares.i hate feeling umcomfortable.

and men who are arnd 20+ and above jst freaks me out. might as wel say. i can jst stay at hme.

headin fr town tmr.big tme shopping :]]!!!

2004-11-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

i'll never go to those chruchy events anymore again. dont ask me why.but i do believe in the father.

everyone expected me to get rammed full strength and yes it did happened. my ex was there if i aint wrong.thank god for answering my prayers. i didnt see him.

between 10 to 1 am last night.was the most horrible night of whole my entire life.

anyways, a chat with mar from 2.37 to 4.27 am. ha, the talk was simply nice and darn hilarious.

that part realyyyyyyyyyy brighten up my morning. thanks a heap pal ;]

2004-11-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

there's no proper training today.like the first time in my 3 years of schooling in nas.i mustt admit i was overjoyed.i came to school and my captain told me that all we had to do was jst to go down to hougang sports hall to support my juniors who wld be playing in a match.i was like yayness;]sad life. am still coughing.really badly.

anyways. caught princess dairies earlier on.simply hilarious.i'm pathetic,i swear i coughed full strength in the cinema.apologise to those in the cinema who had to tolerate with the terrible noise comin out from my mouth.,pardon me.

was supposed to meet up with dj,yili and pi yuan at 3 fr steamboat at marina south.sadly,it was cancelled,and they decided to catch a movie instead,but wel,i was still at the sports hall at then.and thinkin that i hafta rush to meet them jst to catch a movie and wonder about zfter that?? nono.i wasnt in a good mood either.oh wel.

pleasant day.

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i jst realised that most pple actually create a blog to show off that they can actually create one and catch people's attention and wharts going on.yea i mean thats what precisely what it is suppose to be.but the'MAJORITY'don't blog.they actually find it cool or whatever shitty poopty they think of it.to have one at that moment and blog almost everyday for the first 2 WEEKS!.and after a few weeks they get tired of it and leave it as it is.

people.dont create one if you dont blog.and plaeasy fuckin delete if urs still exist with a post on like august?

2004-11-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

one in a million years, i stayed at home.today's deepavali.i'm not concern.and i'm still coughing.guess my cough has worsen.and earlier on,mama gave me mangoes to eat!hurr hurr.i guess she doesnt know that i'm sick or whart??kelv is leavin fr paris in one or 2 weeks tme ;]

YEA! no one to fight over the bed,the com,the whatever shit we always fight about fr 2 weeks.
whartever,but i;m gonna be bored and dad's gonna tell all his crap stuffs to me ;9

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wharts the most shocking thing that happened to you after a few mnths of your break up?

wel,fr me?mine ex bf message me all of a sudden. to be mre precise,i happened to pass by his frenster acc a few weeks ago. the dozen no.s of girls in his acc obviously mke me feel jealous.i dunno whart the hella shitty tupid pill i ate.mke me send him a message and told him my fuckin feelings.my hatred at tha very moment. rmb. one week ago. i post a dramatic piece of my feelings? wel,that actually refers to him.of cos.i told him how irresponsible he was by leavin me in the lurch.and clear no messy probs?i realised that i was bloody childish then. was so darn impulsive.i din thought about the consequences before writing those harsh words.

but things gort worse now.i sort of mke him lost all his pride and confidence in deciding things.but i have no regrets.fr pouring out all my feelings.whart for bottle your feelings up and lead a pathetic life?they know nuts fr pete's sake and thought your life is betta of. its jst plain useless bottling up i swear.no matter how guilty you knoe they'll feel.its betta to say them out.cause in the end.the other party will also tell you their true feeling and the feeling wont be that bad afterall.maybee everything its worth a while.tho it might nort be as perfect.and you'll be upset. and i guess after my break up. i never ever lke datin again.i'm jst 15 years old and am crapping all these nonsense here.

somehow its good to be impulsive.

pardon me.i sound so dramatic heree

2004-11-10T21:21:00.000+08:00

coughs-aint feeling too well,had sore throat yesterday,so i drank lke 6 bottles of water!but it was all cold water.i ended up having a bad cough.skipped training.and wke up arnd 9.wenta see the doctor and after that.headed fr rin's hse.

wel,we bake brownies again!hurr hurr.but taste nort as gud as yesterdae;[ swam with bestie!,nicole,germaine and all the lil cousins earlier on.gosh!they're all so nice and funny peeps.

dinner at her hse again.three daes in a row.i feel so mean.have been interrupting them ;/met my brother's besty on the train.talk a whle lot. gurlies lookin gud!pretty as ever.shall go sunbathing with em soon.;o

i wanan be tanner;]

2004-11-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

jst realise that one shld really get themself a best bud:)
wel.fr me.i have almost everything.
a caring mama.and my girl, bestie of cos.

we ran back hme together this evening.and tho i was gasping for air.
it was really nice.imagine two girls running hand in hand.laughing happily lalala.great great feeling indeed.
wel.this aint what we normally get to spend with our frens.
and although this sound really dumb.
i really lke the feeling.
fr my whle 15 years.
i have never experience this much fun being with my frens,
she's the first.
i really love her.

lol.i sound lke a les huh.
uhuh-shakes hand.
am nort.jst truly overjoyed.i haf such a GREAT FRIEND :]
few days ago.i jst happened to think about my ex bf,
and got really depress,
but the toucching words she told me really got me moving on in life again.thanks pal!

she jst mkes muah day.though sometime i jst feel lke kicking her ass.
lol.guess.thats whart mkes us a pair -winks-

ps:sorry peeps,i sound pretty long winded today,and seem to be praising my girl all the way.hurr hurr.pardon me.i'm jst truly happy.
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anyways.i gort a burnt last sat.
and today's training was horrible.
was under the darn sun again.
i cld feel myself turning into a blackie:[

but i LOVE My new skin colour.

2004-11-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

i'm so lerthagic.

i wke up later den usual.

todae's a bore.

i only wenta get my contact lense.

after that i headed fr hme and caught some sleep.

surprisingly,it aint raining today.

and its bloody warm.

turns on:yellowcard-only one.

2004-11-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 7.30 this morning.

prepared myself to meet up with karin.

headed for jrong complex after that.

i feel so mean.

i woke the b'dae girl.to ask fr direction.sorry NOEY.

wel,i had pretty much funn there.

but sadd.

i'm so clumpsy.

i ended up.getting bruise.everywhre.

first,i knock my head against the slide

den this lil boy came smwimming uder the float i was resting on and i obviously capsized.

worse part.my thigh scratched against the bloody wall.

i was yelling at him.and all he did was jst smile.you ass.

aiights.but the happy thing.i gort a tan.

i can bloody feel the heat.

my face is burnt.

my brother says i look lke a maid.:/

karin looks lke black charcoal.

chuckles-.we exchange clothings.

wore hers after bathe.and she wore mine :)

funn .

i'm bloody tired. i 've gort lots to blog.but i'm too lazy.

i can still feel myself struggling in the wave.

2004-11-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

i dunno who has gotten into me,

i jst realise how important the pple aound me are,

especially karin:)and my 5 babehs.

wel,its really fast.

i'm leaving school next year. and leavin all my friends.when am i gonna sese them all again?? big qestion mark.?

i feel so weird now.

recently one of my poly friend told me how much i'll miss my sec school days.after i leave school next year.

fr now.i think i've felt it.

gees.i'm gonna treasure each and every single one of them frm now onwards.

and i gues i'll never meet any gud buddy as good as karin:)

karin>dun be mistaken :p althou i;m turning into one soon.yeah you knoe.

wel,i;ll miss you guys

2004-11-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

i feel lost

i feel that i'm living in misery

for the past 5 mnths...

i cant let go.

you jst turn away on me one day

and left me in the lurch.

you clear no messy problems...

i hate you.

lke i say.

if only i culd stab you..and see you dead.

i know i'm mean.

but you left me with no choice.

i want no this sort of life.

i know its been 5 mnths.

but i jst cant stand it when i see you leadin a good life

i feel so jealous.

if only i were in your shoes.

you suffer nothing.fr pete's sake.

i hate it when you mke me look lke a loser.

you've changed,

2004-11-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

my leg is so tired.

walked a whle lot this afternnon.

wel,had training in de morning and wenta support junior's match

ate lke a piggy.

laughed lke a bitch.

off to find job.with bing quan.jialing and xm

pretty fun pple to be with.

i wenta the old place.

mke me recalled of the past.

i even went pass his hse.

it was so saddening.

till today. i'm still thikin.bahh:/

wharts this?

jst dunby dunb dumb.

if only i could stab thru his heart and tell him how much i hate him..

the hatred in me.will never be gone.

truly.till todae.i hate him.yesh you.i detest.

2004-11-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

i'm surprised.my limbs and arms aint aching.

did a whle lot of exercises yesterday durin training.

towning with muah girl todae :)

as usual.we went to the shops we normally go to.

bought ma stussy school bag. fr nxt year.

karin keeps complaining i'm burning $$

bahh :/

i lke it so much and i bought it too early.i 've that urge to use it

todae's special.we town fr only 2 hrs?

well.haveta head fr changi airport by 3

gort some job interview.

dammnit.my time was wasted. that bloody black made us wait there.

in e end all we had to do was jst to fill in e form and get out butts off.

they'll call us back.am waiting fr reply nw

chuckles-my first tme

working.and with so many lil pple.

i'm kinda lookin forward to it.

wenta girly's hse after that,caught passion otc

i cried a whle lot.dramatic shit.

it was so sick cann.

well,i din finish watchin it.cant bear to,

swiiming tmr,perhaps :)

2004-10-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

its holis nw.raining everyday

i dont think i can tann that easily.

wel,met up with rin to collect muah bikini and stuff,

den met up with bird and headed for town.

wenta get my zara top.

after that took a bus dwn.to my aunt's place

was supposed to tan but the sunlight aint strng.

swam a whole lot.i;m havin body aches nw :(

chuckles-had pretty much fun todayy

wel,sumthing is wrng with me.i'm starting to buy mre brwn tops these days?

2004-10-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

right. its been a long tme since i last blog.

well.pretty busy lately.trainings and outings with muah babehs.

i'm so happy.-hops- that we're all finally back togther lke how we use to be.

love muah babes.

anyways,i was supposed to haf lke 5 hrs of training?

in de end it ended with oni 3.phew,

went hme to get changed and meet up with rin and headed fr town. as usual.

my killer heel! killing me!i swear i'm gonna wear my thongs mre than that damn heel.

tanning tmr :)

2004-10-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

i swear i cant get enough of the one and only girl in muah class now!

cheenah pple stand aside.

get a life.

i bloody cant stand the way you guys talk.love pinkk!!

god!chinese lang!the way you pose in your tupid pictures.

the way you dress.

hello! i;m nt tryin to insult you guys,lke the uncool ones.

but i simply jst feel that you need to be reminded of how you look on the surface,

yes!

2004-10-22T18:23:00.000+08:00

pardon me for not blogging for a long time.i've been too busy these days.

and i'm too tired to blog. ;p

my period came.and no wonder i was so emotional 2 days ago.

this is bad.

anyways.today is suppose to be my free day.no schooling.

but i end up going to school for training.

nao hiao.i really envy those who can enjoy themself.

whatever it is.i've gort many programmes coming up tmrw, gort company :)

2004-10-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

turns on:bella baby :)

the song mkes me move lke one fuck.wohoo.chingy ish darn cute cann.

oh wel,boring dae.though no schooling todae.had 6 hrs long of training.

was so bloody beat durin training.i can jst lie on de floor and bammed!

went hme after that.and kelv came home nt long after.dinner at elias.great great.

talk a whole lot.

anyways.back to FRI

i had so much fun with ma 5 babehs.we ate.we shop amd caught oujai board

FREAKIN scary show i swear.screamed lke one one mad potato.karin,birdie and i were lke gonna tear birdie's sweater man;/

I JUST LOVE THE sexays gurlies tabits

2004-10-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

my frinch so fuckin short!how ta hell to go out tmr.bahh:/

wel wel,exams ends todae.get that bloody haircut right after that,and ended up lookin lke crap.

headed fr twn after that.

spent the whle tme fooding.:)

pigggynees.

dinner at rin's hse.

tmr with ma girlies!yayness.

CME crap.to school fr 45 mins.ah cumin hme to sleep first.before heading out

vroomvroom.-drive away

2004-10-13T16:45:00.000+08:00

c'mon and shake ya tailfether -oops-

so exams ends tmr:) wohoo.rockit

simply too happy -skips arnd-

:P i'm gonna geta a hair cut tmr.

fridae with ma five babehs.

i miss going out with the girlies.really!

eeks!cant wait for everything.

i know i sound really childish.pardon me.

cant be helped.i've been stuck at hme fer too long.

kelv:"my exams are over,you can stay home and study,and i'm going out to enjoy myself"

ass!i really envy him.hes enjoying himself lke mad,

and i'm stuck at hme.

each tme he goes out.i'll be tempted to tag along.-sulks-

why do i as if this hme ish so horrible.

hurr hurr.

nah la.i love this house.i love the room.i love everything

jst feel out of place. when i'm stucked hme fer too long.

i miss everything out dere.the peeps.the place.the feel.

the funniest and weirdest dream:

i dreamt i broke all my hairbands :/

i received good progress award :)

this lady gave me a bag full of bling bling$$ ::))

IF ONLY this wld come true.i dont mind breakin all ma hairbands :p

if this combination bad??

2004-10-12T19:59:00.000+08:00

i wanna kick some ass out dere!woahooo.

i'm so darn readyy for holidays.((x

i cant wait for exams to be over.

i wanna be blackie tann:)

i wanna slide along slide at da beach with karin.

i wanna have stayovers.

i wanna chomp at sherry's hse.

i wanna catch some good flicks.!!

yayness. gonna be ovee this thurssday.

i cant wait to kick kelvass to parisengland.and indulge lke a queeny!

i'm so high.i drank coffee.and it gets my flyyin high.hurr hurr.

2004-10-11T13:49:00.000+08:00

lets jst say.black fits me betta.

geo and phy this morning:(

forgot one formula.

i'm dead this time.

:(

off to chem and d andt

tata.

2004-10-09T19:50:00.000+08:00

i jst realise how hard it is to forget someone.

nt forget. but to lose the feeling.

:( i still miss you till today.

you dunno.

i rather be dead.

how long do i have to wait. to get you outa my mind?

so long.....

i'm dying

this sounds so dramatic.

but i'm suffering in silence.

you dunno

i wanna hear no you

see no you.

den i'll be fine...........

the story ends herre

2004-10-09T14:59:00.000+08:00

narcotic-divinity.here it is.ma new place.((x
<3333333

___does this look lke a mouse or does it look lke a sheep_________________

one mre WEEK! jst one! and i can partyy till i get beat

its weird. i'm stayin at hme to study.

lke when will i ever stay at hme for one whle dae. starin at the book. and tryin to get the papragraph up my head?? clueless

msn is nt workin.karin and i sort of talk thru my tagboard.its lame.tryin to as.spastic!eeks.but it was fun though.

i hate memorising geo.its a chore.

bye fr now.vroom~vroom~.

2004-10-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

this is my new home. ((x

charlotte_rose. ish no mre valid.tho.its still on.get outta there!!

2004-10-08T17:16:00.000+08:00

maths exam todae. i was able to do it

first tme in history. i felt the confidence.

i'm so duper happy :) mever felt lke this fr a long tme

gawd.am havin a cold war with my brother nw

we fought last nite

cried a whle lot.

wenta have ljs.

must sayy PS's ljs ish gud

terrible headache.

i'm gonna sleep now.

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the losers.copycats.poseurs and the pple whu jst lack that sense of originality. FCUK OFF! pple!if you knoe i'm talkin about you

please reflect back!

go look at yourself in de mirror. and question your ass.

get a life.shitheads.you're bloody gettin onto my nerves.i dun mention your name doesnt mean i'll never.

jst everything! everything you have ta follow. you'll never b graded!

asses.i cant stand the sight of you.please fr pete's sake,be yourself. if you're cheenah jst remain as one. if you're cool.continue to rock on.

if you lke usin that cheenah lang.continue using it. in fact i'll think you're cool.you have your own stlye.i'll remember you fr that. [seriously].

but if you try to change to suit in.forget it.

p.s:i'm nt really tryin to insult anyone here. i'm jst tryin to imply to those out there.the UNCOOL-BEINGS! get a life

2004-10-07T13:47:00.000+08:00

MY NEW LAYOUT!!! ((X COOL BEANS I LOVE IT TO BITS IRKS!

first black. and back to white again.always revolving around this 2 color.boring eh.i lofe it.

screw up ss todae. thou i studied very.hard

the sentence"to what extend does discrimination cause a conflict between the sinhalese and tamil"was on my mind the whle time.i knoe bth the ans.

i vomited out the wrng one.

jst hpe fr some marks.

i wanna pass ss

mke myself to drink the horrible coffee i brewed
to keep myself awake.

wrote dwn a whle load of crap. fr cpaper 1

i havtea concentrate on maths nw.

i'm hme so early.

2004-10-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

screams!i'm sho in pain now.urgh**

wenta get piercings yesterdae. lke wth was wrng with me man.i jst happen to see noey's piercings and thought of getting them too.and nw i'm suffering mama says she feels it fr me.orhhh.

yayness!bought the zara skirt,i'm so gan jiong lke what karin says.wore it immediately after i bought it.but cant help it. the previous skirt i wore was over size.lord.!how to walk.can see butt crack.

had dinner with karin and family at tampines safra.great great. we had soo much. and so full.the way denzil wear nw ish coral!wohoo.rock it!

i love calvin klein ETERNITY.

2004-09-29T19:35:00.000+08:00

saw him in school todae.but i gave him that damn look.well thats me.you mke me upset and i wont show you the good side of me anymre.thank y for not replying my"HI' yesterdae.total act of dumbness.

physics test was pretyy alrte.but chinese was a chore.getit;(

was studyinn fr geo on ma bed when i instantly fell asleep.dad came hme and wke me up,then tada! dinner time.lke wtf!i wanna sleep mre.i'm so beat.

happy fr now.cos tmr ish the last class test fr the week.yayness
((:

i love the smell of the new YSl perfume.sniff sniff.i'm gonna spray it tmr!

2004-09-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

i'm doomed!gonna flung ma poa test.so dead ;( and i think this test is the worse so farr.

sigh.nt a gd day for me.anwys,i'm nt doin anything for my d and t project.-sulks-dejian ma team mate just seem to be the one doin everything.cos we bth knoe i'll be the one ruining e whle thing if i were to help.oh wel.hes been pretty patient wit me i must sayy.i sort of made a mistake. and he actually help me with it.without a single complain.hmm thanks pal for tolerating with my dumnbess.i'm really so nt fit to be in da dnt. and might be considering to drp nxt yr.

2004-09-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

yayness;) i jst gt back my test paper.must sayy ma hrd wrk really paid off.gt an A1 for chem paper.-skips arund-was just so glad that i became really high and gt really hyper!gettin back into the crazing moment with yili.well.but of us were havin out period.cant be help if we're lke this.

fine.i'm so dramatic again.i cried earlier on durin english period.jst thinkin of him.ruin my day. and the saddest thing is.todaes the 27.the SUppose to be anniversary day.get what i mean-sulks-

but am fine aft cryin everything out.BACK to being the happy lolly gurll :)

mama.says shes gonna get for me the zara skirt.whees!i cant wait.i wanna get it now.

2004-09-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

terrible terrible.yesh yesh.whatever things i blog now ish all just about him.this has to end.

i miss the sugarr boyy x))

mum says.dun ever think of going back to him.

sigh.why,cos shes afraid that i might not take the second blow.and she wants me to concentrate on my studies. and to think of my career in the near future.and the joy i will have when i go out to wrk.this is makin me upset

the things which u told me the other day.makes me wanna wait for u.but is it all just a lie?you dun wanna tell me.i'm havin lots of mix feelings now.-sulks-

2004-09-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

i've given up hpe oredi.shall perish the thought of waiting for you.i hate it when couples cuddle right in front of me. oni remind me of my past time.thou. missed you lyk hell earlier on.and i just realise that i dun really mean a thing.

i'm in not in da mood to blog ;((

2004-09-23T16:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE KELV.(my deary bro.)i love you to bits;))

bla bla.just gt back frm school.wohoo!i'm surprise am able to explain e maths sums i copied frm muzee.wel,thanks for sayyin that i copy with my eyes open!ha thats of cus'!like duh.

gees*i get t see him only in da morning.but after school,hes gone.i miss him so badly thou i see him,but he doesnt knoe.hes so ignorant about everything else except his own business.seeing only gurls writing testimonial for him. mkes me feel so jealous.it just seems to me that hes been lying to me all this while:((

the guys i met recently.are all no good pple.it justt seems like they wish to see me get upset over them.bahh:/mayb been straight is a bad thing.i just only get involve with gals.like what ma i mood says.i'm upside dwn now.getit.

why am i alwaes blogging like im so sadd and being so affected.had enough of all that crap stuffs.i'm wanna be a happy happy gal.

2004-09-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

gees*just hadd a talk with the old guyy.i must sayy his kinda different.character just suck big time cann.

everyone is weird la now.especially the males.showing fucked up attitude.like what the hell is wrng with them.knn.

hadd chem test earlier on.LOSh*lost some marks alrd.sulks.i'm left with so little time to study for my final exmas.puffed up:((

2004-09-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

my vision is blurring..guess it has got to do with my tension headache again.i owaes get it when exams are nearing.i'm even havin problem typing this entry now.

ohwel, no choice.just havta strain my eyes a lil'.tutition recently is owaes endin so late.thou its suppose to be oni one and a half hrs.bobby,stretch it to 2 hrs now.

anws.guess what!vanessa has finish studyin her ss.this ish like so unlike me.when will i ever sit still on my swirling chair.studyin ss.aiights.but this is me now.whole new me!am gonna study study study.till exams over.i'm gonna have fun and no one stands in my way!=)

2004-09-18T12:14:00.000+08:00

-sulks-exams is jt round t corner.i haveta study study study.lost of tests comin up nxt wk.am going out to study with kel lata on.

phew.my hp bill this mnth is much cheaper than i had expected.thk god.mama didnt ramm me.even thou.i'm gonna change it to another new plan.wel.guess the new plan is much betta off.free incomin call and lots mre msg i can send.

2004-09-16T16:35:00.000+08:00

i woke up tis morning and am sad to say i was pretty shocked that you didnt reply my msg last nite.

wondering what did i said to you the nite before.that causes you not to reply me?ha.but later.came hme and realise that you actually doze off la.guess i think too much.but cant be blame.i didnt bring my phone to school todae.-giggles-.

change a new pair of ma contact lense this morning.gosh gosh gosh.wrng day to have it changed.everything just looked so misty after i put it on.imagine me walkin around school the whole day straining my eyes.i must see its pretty umcomfortable.worse still.it made me sleepy..i guess my degree has increase again.DARNIT.

hate thursdays.lessons on this day is always long and draggy.[skipped maths epp todae,lyk me first time can?.wel,i mean whats the point of attending chris's lesson when i'm so darn tired and i can bet i'll definately fall asleep thru the lesson.

yawns*pigginess mood these few daes.but...... glad to say.i've been payin attention to the teachers.good thing.or else i'm bound to flung my tests

share my favourite fran wit kelvin man!lyk woah.he likes it.haha.hey karin.i agree with u. white choco taste betta than the dark choco ones.nice!

oh marc marc..... miss ya.=)

2004-09-15T19:35:00.000+08:00

[edit/]i'm so so tired today.was at the gathering area listening to sim talk.i actually sort of dozed off.fall way thru.amazing how i did that huh?dunno why i'm so tired too.slept quite early last nite.but still.ahh*exams are just round the corner and i'm still in the holi'dae mood.guess i must really push myself.......

am not in a good mood for the past few daes.pondering over many things.and easily affected by pple's words.this is bad.

2004-09-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick now.feeling so weak and i cant get to sleep.-sulks-just returned back from training.well.glad to say. i didnt train today.was feeling so dizzy and its really impossible for me to even hit the ball.just laid my head on the table and slept thru.woke up after an hr or so.and headed back home.damnit!kelvin is forcing me iron his clothes for him.AH*.but whu cares.he's giving me money.-whicks*.money face mini me.

gonna meet rin for lunch.fooding dae again.i love foodin!

2004-09-09T09:44:00.000+08:00

urgh*just take it as i'm begging you.please stop pestering me!you keep telling me that you wont bother me again.and here you are again.asking me tons and tons of qns.when will this end.i hate this!leave me alone.i've enough of you.

GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!just get outa my SIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-09-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

knn! you can just fuck off man.you're bloody pissing me off!tmd.cant you just stop ruining me.forcing me to say things i dont wanta say.and stop fucking tell me how you're feeling cos' i dont wanta know.i'm not going to places where i'll get to see you again.and you askin me all the weird qns!-sulks-bahh;/ to hell with you la!

2004-09-06T09:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE XAVIER*

sadded.its his b'dae and still have lessons to attend.oh wel.hpe you have fun at school.

yawns*.i'm gonna stay at home the whle day todae to finish up my school wrk.before i get going.
well lets hpe i'll enjoy myself lata on.-yippee-:D

yucks.the way u talk have change.i dunno why you've become liddat.like what most pple will say. you dont realise it.eee. i dunno why.it sounded so boastful.the both of you seem to be in some cahoot...... i'm disappointed with how the both of you talk to me now....... fine. i only have myself to blame..

2004-09-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

whheess*its xaviers bdae tml.gonna celebrate with him.well haven seen him before.just hpe that everything will turn out fine.

had three damn hours of tuition.bahh:/ bobby's lessons ish so darn boring todae. cant seem to figure out whats he's teaching man.and the whle time i was shivering throughout the lesson cos' it was so cold though i had my sweater on.

yippees.-skips around-.am lookin forward to the dinner tmr.AW.but i didnt get him a present.cos i oni know bout it todae.kaes.shall make him a card den.haah.boring man.-sulks-

2004-09-05T13:16:00.000+08:00

MAMA i dunno whats with you this few daes.you've been avoiding daddy's calls.and the two of you aint talkin normally.please let me knoe whats going on.i hate to see you like this the whle time.i just reaslise that my mischief ish just a small issue.but i knoe theres something going on.BIG PROBLEM.i wanna knoe.i aint a lil' girl animore.

you've been crying in silence and i knoe it all.but you just refuse to tell me. pls mama.i wanna knoe.i'm living in this family.with the both of you not telling me anything.HOLLER.i'm your daughter for pete's sake

LET ME KNOW!!!!!!URGH*

2004-09-04T20:21:00.000+08:00

GEESSS**

mum's in a foul mood today.and i'm so dumb to actually provoke her.tupid me :x

went to school really early this morning for d and t epp.i almost fall asleep thru chias lessons man.GOSH.i was so tired.trained like hell the nite before.and slept late.i was really beat in the morning!which idiot can tahan attending lessons on a SATURDAY MORNING?????

knn.fuckin.vincent lee told my mum almost all the negative remarks about my marks.i dunno why.i didnt fail the important subs.and he just goes on and on and on.that there was not a single nice word comin out from his damn mouth!

came home to get change.and off i go to town with mama.okie fine.towning was horrible today.mum didnt allow me to get anything.!!i just show that black face of mine.well.again.she was so darn pissed with me.expected she didnt talk to me.and give me the dulan look.

bahh:/ kaes.i showed mum my black face cos' i was disappointed and upset.told her that my marks for CA improved and she agreed to a reward.but in the end.got nothing and just see her pull a long face the whle time.everytime i go out with her.she'll either complain that her leg pain or head pain ARGH*and again she'll be in a foul mood.pull a long face.TMD.what did i do man!!

everything's ruined.ended.

AHHH** he's online now but busy!!.i'm so happie -skips around-

2004-09-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

KELVIN>thanks a heap![for creating my new layout. i love you my BRO]

-whees*.yayness.[HOLIDAY WEEK].

no training on monday!!!!! first time.for like 3 years.this ish the first time.i have no training.bahh:/ still.i've got lots of epp to attend. this one week holiday aint for me to enjoy but to mke use of this time to study. URGH*life in this small island is so pathetic.i swear i'm gonna leave this place.in no time!!

saddening.i've got d and t epp tmr+training+parents meeting session.HELLa FOR ME!!!! sat is suppose to be my free day.free to do anything i want.and to enjoy myself.yet.i've got to be in school by 8 tmr with so many bloody things on.FUCKit!

vincent lee betta dont tell my mum any negative remarks.i dont wanna get ramm. I STILL WANNA GO shopping!!!!

I'M THINKIN OF YOU!.

2004-09-02T19:09:00.000+08:00

[edit/]i've decided to start afresh.gonna blog again.keeping this going!! wahhaa!

well.many things has happened all these while.to make things clear. i dont like neither the new guy nor the old guy any more!i'm so happy.on cloud 9.that my results are improving.just got back my progress card todae.shocked to knoe.i only failed my combined humanities and maths..bahh.only 39 for maths.OMG!!! i was like expecting lower than that can?

ramm elise again.somehow i just cant stand it.she blames herself for everything and bla bla bla.thats her.i cant help it.but to accept the fact.>>i;m sorry again.

SAFTI ish so darn boring.i spend the whole time with karin.elise.and noey only strolling.resting and eating man!simply wasting our time there.hahah.but who cares.betta off than stayin in class.attending boring lessons.[makes my sleep].bahahahah/.

right.i'm sorrie but to say.i like someone else now. you shld knoe who.sometimes feelings just cant be controlled.so i hpe you'll understand me.PLEASE dont bame yourself for anything.you did nothing wrong.

ARGH*am peeling like hella man!my chest! how am i gonna go out this weekend.:/

-whicks-

2004-08-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

i'm in no more mood to resolve anymore things.u have already told ur mum about it.and everyone that is.i'm truly affected by this. things would be so different.

DAMN IT.i dont feel like doing anything.and why choose to tell me at this point in time.when i haven study and test is just tmrw.???????

i dont want you to feel what you're feeling all this while.and i'm the cause for all this.i think i should just disappear from ur world.and you'll be free to do anything.no one sayin anymore things about you.aint that betta?

i feeel so hurt after readin the thing u sent me.i'm nt in the best mood to say anything to you.at this point in time.

2004-08-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

i've ruined everything.by telling you all that has been kept inside my heart for a long time?

i know you hate me now.this past few days you've been treating me coldly?i know i shouldnt be so mean to you.and now i totally regret it.you;re not gonna treat me like how we were before.and i'm prepared for it.

the village is nice.was supposed to catch catwomen but.bugis shaw wasnt showing.bahh:/sad
there was one couple sitting beside me the whole time.laUGHING AT MOST OF THE SCENE.whats the prob with them.so darn irrirating.worse part they couldnt understand whats the show about.pure idiots.

daniel my liz cousin has grown so much in just 2 mnths time.cos he looks so darn huge now.with the hair.eek!cutie.i just feel like hugging him.but i cant.ha.too many pple surrounding him the whle time.chernis is tanner now.and she still looks as skinny.ahh just simply love her.shes so sweet and pretty.but sad.ryan wasnt with her.she seem so bored that i gonna lame with her.went to five star restaurant.dinner was great.again.little lady didnt eat much.just bean curd and few mouths of rice. i wonder how she survive?

2004-08-12T18:36:00.000+08:00

moodless.i'm in no mood to blog these days.lost touch with blogging.it is so boring my pants off bahh:/

school's as for normal.ahhh*i'm so darn happy i pass my maths test.just like after attendin a month of tuition i've improved!oh wel-but still this is only a class test.whats more important is still my CA.left with like only 4 days to study?think i'm gonna flung my test again.

packed up some things jus nw.and gave them to elise.hope she likes them :D

aiights.i detests guys now.they are all bloody cheatin on ME!lie to me and cheat my feelings.*farkers*get the hell out da my sight.

fcuk vanity.#

2004-08-10T19:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a great day!! whee had lotsa fun at karin's hse.mirik's one month party.althou i never see the little kiddo.eek!

lexter and shane were wearin the same shirt.gay man.haah.oh wel.both of them are kinda fun to be with.hilarious.and they open up to peeps really fast.got home quite early cos' i went out quite early?

went almost the whle of s'pore just to find that mango skirt.and damn it.either out of stock or all gone.ahhh*but in the end still bought FCUK top.whee.am contented now.

fcukinkybugger.com

2004-08-08T13:44:00.000+08:00

i'm stress enough.i've enough of YOU.you've been askin me the same old question for so many days.cant u feel that i've already given u an answer?please for goodness sake stop it.

the old guys not in s'pore again.off to some bintan island.if i hadn't send him a message last nite.i might still be wondering.aiights.talk to shane jus now.he has been brooding over the same issue.that rins' mum has a bad impression on him.actually it aint totally his fault.and keep that in mind.both of you are at fault.kaes.

its a boring boring sunday again.have ta attend tuition lata on.can look at teacher bobby and tease him.he's so cute.eek!

gosh.goto rush off to complete some chinese homewrk.bahh:/

2004-08-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

saw so many couples today behaving so intimately.i thought of my past.and i missed him.oh wel-
i just gt my hair cut.and its much betta. whee*gt a temporary rebonding which will only last for a day?urgh.i dont feel like washing it.love it the way it is now!

mum spent bout 150 bucks on some hair products jus for me/ah i feel so bad.had nydc today.love'romeo and juliet'it just simply rocks my girl boy boxers'.surprisingly dad gave me money to buy things i want?wohoo.like the first time can?

bahh:/ i'm still troubled.by so many things.the way my best fren talks to me have change.that why i started talkin weirdly to her earlier on?i miss my ex.i miss den's messages.i dunno whats with me.i'm brooding over small little things too.my life at this point in time just sucks.i hate this!